okk.. mar just knew abt that thing.
she wasn't angry or anything, much to our relief.
so now, our part in it is over (actly, it was over a long time ago..)
and it's the start for them :)
all the best to mar!
we're behind you all the way!

went optics ytd, got my eyes checked.
din really differ much but still i got new lenses, gonna collect it on tues :)
tried contacts ytd and today, putting it in is quite easy,
but taking out is the hard part..
esp for my right eye, it blinked ALOT when i tried taking out..
since i can only wear it for progressively longer period of time,
and today is the 2nd day, i'm half blind right now..

studied for h3 test today, progress was quite gd :)
finished more than 1/3 of wad i need to study
just hope tt the following days i'll be as productive!

lol hols just started and i'm studying away.. how sad is tt?
and this post is v v incoherent cos i'm kind of tired right now..
ytd tt optician commented tt my eyes are tired
i totally agree..
like how the dark circles are getting bigger and darker..
and how my eyes totally went bloodshot when i first tried the contacts..
i cried ytd.
from trying on the contacts.. -.-

i realise i can be quite childish :/
it shows in all my gp essays, like i have no depth in my thinking..
then tt day mar told me tt tt guy is mature in his thinking
and i thought abt myself, how shallow i am, i dun even think abt my future..
but the world out there sort of scares me..
all the competition and having to find and build your own career out of nth..
wad if i dun like my job after studying so so much for it?
wouldn't tt be a waste of time?
tt stressed me up cos i have to noe wad i want really really soon..
and to get a scholarship, i not only need to have gd oratorical skills, but also a passion for wadever the scholarship is for, esp when there's a bond to it.
))):
in short, i'm not prepared for my future, time is moving way too fast for me.

confused, scared, worried